Thursday, May 27, 2010

A Couple Things We'll Miss

Hi. This is Eleanore.
We each have thousands of things we're going to miss,
but we decided to narrow it down to a few things each.
This list does not include people. People will have their own post soon.

Frances...

"Seeing alien flowers and picking up seeds. Today when I was walking with my  mom, I found a WHITE poppy. That was the only one I've ever seen."
(Remind us to tell you how to make a little french girl out of a poppy)


"Watching the slanting water from the fountain."


"Riding bikes with Clara at the Mas."
(We didn't have photos of Frances riding bikes but this is the Mas)

"The Place. It's just so cool that a town has one."

" Going to the Nougatine.
We went there on our first day. And we'll go there on our last day.
Sometimes we go there for the food and
sometimes we go there for the owner of the Nougatine. 
Eleanore calls her Madame Short and Squeaky.
I call her Mini Mouse. She's so cute and and she always says, 'Bon jour-uh.' "

 

"Dogs. The only blog I did was French dogs, so you know how much I like them."
(My mom said Frances would definitely see dogs in Truckee;
Frances said she never noticed the dogs in Truckee before.)


"Towers.
Can you name one tower in Truckee?
I like them because they wind and the stairs are so close together."



Me, Eleanore...

"Old Stuff. Everything in France is old. I mean,
in America, things are definitely pretty old, but not 2,000 years old.
The oldest thing in Truckee is less than 150 years old--
except of course, the Petroglyphs on Donner Summit.
Old is special. You always wonder what it's gone through and what it's seen.
I always wonder that, anyway."



"Trees lining roads. When trees are lining the road there's a canopy above you.
A green, thick canopy. It feels like you're driving to a palace and the road was made special just for you."



Walking the Loop. When we walk the loop it kind of hits every type of land. The first part is just a road. The second a forest. The third a long creek that we do leaf-races in. The fourth, pasture land, full of baby sheep. And the fifth, a park with grass up to my chin. When we got here it still not even above my shoe. On this loop sometimes we make stories up, sometimes we peak in places, sometimes we sing, sometimes we take artsy photos (like the horses farting). It takes about an hour. Along the creek there is a little log that we named Uzee (because my grandma used to pronounce Uzes "Uzee"). It's long and goes up at a slant. In its reflection, it looks like an alligator with an open mouth. We say hi to it every time we pass.


Cobblestone streets are in every village around here.
Cobblestone has shape to it instead of a flat, boring, black asphalt street.


Playing white-to-white.
I play a game where I run and jump from white paver to white paver. It's very fun.

Vines on stone structures.
The colors go so well together.
That light green and the gray.
But it's not just the color. The vines are like a waterfall.
(Here we are back at the 2,000 year old Roman bridge. This time with Clara.
We skipped rocks under the bridge and threw rocks over the bridge).



Bisous. Pronounced beee-zooo.
They're a fun way to greet and say goodbye to people.
Bisous are three kisses, back and forth, on each cheek.
Bisous go by so fast that you don't have enough time to take a picture of them.
After this photo of Myrtille and Frances and me was taken,
we gave each other bisous to say goodbye.
Myrtille is the main woman at the University Populaire, where we took our art class.
'Bye people. It's 23:43.
That means it's almost ZERO.
I need to go to bed.

My mom will continue...
Quick biosous comment:
The other day a friend asked if we Americans do bisous! I wish!
But then I really like those long, close hugs, too!

Jeff...


"Bike rides on winding, one-lane roads with hardly any cars."


"Chemins (litttle roads). The dirt ones out in fields or the walled ones between neighborhoods."


"Hanging out with Carolyn on the terrace, eating olives and cheese
and drinkning wine and talking and listening."

"Agriculture everywhere. Fields of wheat, acres of vines, small farms and gardens."

"Exploring. Whether on my bike or in our car, or on our walks,
I love checking out new paths."

"Watching my girls play together. In this case, on the roof of our apartment. Of course they'll play together when they get home to Truckee. But this experience has forced them to be each other's playmates and I've loved watching them grow closer."


Me, Carolyn...

Bed-time with Frances.
When she's tired, this girls unoads it all in heartbreaking & precious detail--
fears, dreams, obsessions, curiosities, griefs, injustices and loves.
I love how vulnerable she is in these times.
How easily she shares. How much she needs the time together.
We've got lots of secrets stored up from these past months.

Blog Construction with Eleanore.
We have learned each other's rhythms and humor and quirks.
We've brainstormed together, composed together, edited together.
I'm in awe of how late she can stay up, how hard she works, how well she dictates.
I cannot think out loud.
She can, eloquently and with such a great sense of balance between humor and introspection.
I've learned so much about her.
And will miss this little side-job of ours.



Watching Jeff with his girls.
I have never. I swear.
The guy can spend hours making flower necklaces with them in a field,
or dedicate an entire morning to studying and drawing their favorite door in Uzes.
He entices them to climb walls just to see what's on the other side.
He shows them how to throw rocks further and higher.
He sneaks off and picks out the perfect fancy sparkly silvery shoes for Frances
and can spot the hippest top in the shop for Eleanore.
They think he's so funny that they actually say, "Be funny now, Daddy."
He learned to french braid hair just the other night...
and makes them play poker with real money.
A month or so ago, Eleanore said she wanted to marry someone just like her dad.
Frances wants to marry her dad.
Smart girls.
Photography. I love taking photographs!

Speaking French. Finally, after three months, I'm thinking in French!
The other day a woman stopped me mid sentence and said,
"What a good accent you have!"
All the better to talk you to death, my dear.
I think the French in this town had their meeting and have decided unanimously to continue engaging with me until I leave.
They see the light at the end of the tunnel.


Walking everywhere.
It's uncanny how much TALKING can happen on a walk!
No meditative walks for us!
Walks are where Frances asks about
god, dogs, reincarnation, and puberty.
Walks are where Eleanore reaches out to hold my hand, unsolicited.
Walks are where we swear the crazy, speeding french driver that just nearly hit us
was the same one who was just a few moments ago was enjoying a long lunch with friends, chatting as if there truly was no time at all.
We have a car now but we still walk everywhere.
We promised each other when we get home
we'll walk or ride our bikes to New Moon
twice a week for groceries.
Hold us to it.
I want to keep everything at a walking pace.

Enjoy the short video below
(taken without the subjects' knowledge!):

Biosous.
Goodnight.
Carolyn

Monday, May 24, 2010

The Question and the Answer

Eleanore is off.  So is Jeff.  Same with Francie. 
This is Carolyn writing tonight. Lucky, lucky me.

                                

I get to pay a small tribute to Marc Cornelissen, our music teacher. 

The first day we met him in his home studio he said this:

Music is questions and answers.
Questions...tension...suspense...
and then answers, the breath, home. 
We need both. 





I couldn't find a pen fast enough.
This was life. Not just music.


And, so, over the next three months,
sometimes twice a week,
I wrote down nearly everything he said...
using his black pen and his blank yellow music sheets.


Marc earned a Master's degree in Music Pedagogy.
He wrote a book on how to teach.
He plays the violin, piano, flute, banjo, guitar and more.
He writes songs for his band.
Performs.
Teaches in schools.
Teaches privately (remember Camille, the young pianist?).


 Music is everything to Marc.
 He refers to "it" as a "she."
I think he would even if he were speaking english.

As Marc himself said last night at dinner at his house,
"I teach music for the life, not for the test."




Cath has been a guide for us on this adventure since Day One,
and the other day she emailed some wonderful advice:
Bring home music from France!
I thought and thought about what we would take home.
Inventory: 1 creole accordian CD.
Then I realized that most of what we'll be bringing home is music.
Because of Marc.



For starters,  
France (for us) will always equal Bach.
Marc loves Bach.
Now, so do we.
And thanks to Frances, we hear him a LOT!



Along with teaching Eleanore about harmonics
And Frances how to build chords,
his priority was to teach the girls how to
invent, to play together, to be free and to be fearless.
Music lessons.
Life lessons.



Below each photo
are Marc's own words...


"Don't use too much energy to play. Only what you need."




"Just imagine...and you can."
(On the art, Eleanore wrote these words)





"The world needs musicians.
There aren't enough people who play."




"Music is so nice with you. Be nice with her.
Sing with your best voice."





"Use your weight...go inside the piano."





"Bach is a funny guy. He always wants to make us work."






"We all do the same mistake with music:
when it’s easy, we go fast;
when it’s hard, we go slow, like a motorcycle that drives on the road
and then into the ditch and then back onto the road."



"Say it to yourself, 'I did it, so I can do it again.' "





"Like everybody, you want to push too hard."




"When you play the saxophone or the flute, you have to breathe.
With the violin and the piano ...
you have to remember to breathe."




"Music is bigger than us.
We must play music with humility."




"Music has reason. Like a father, it knows."







"Bach is communion, intensity and love."


"The best fingering is when your hand works less...no tension."





"We breathe music. The world is music. Vibrations.
Molecules of oxygen vibrating together."





"The world without music is sad and poor.
With music, the world is rich."


"You spend too much energy trying to play.
You need to have energy to have FUN playing."




"You are a bit shy with your violin. Party Time!"


"We only learn by mistake.
When you don't want to make a mistake, you don't learn."
(Besides, Marc says if Frances makes a mistake playing her music,
only her teeth will fall out. That's all. No death, no falling sky,
just a few lost teeth!)





"With music, you have possibilities...don't panic."






"In the sky (when your hands are up off the keys),
you have to imagine what you do...and then do it."





"Try to extract the best of yourself."





"You will be sad and happy in your life
but music will make it easy for you to EXPRESS without words
and this will fill you up."




"Life is so nice. So, so nice."
(Frances's art for Marc)




"You don’t want to leave.
You want to stay here forever.
It breaks the feeling to leave."
(Teaching Frances how to play the last notes of Bach's Well Tempered Clavier)





"You have to learn what’s inside you first
then you grab what is outside of you and you learn that."
(Eleanore with her inner-elephant; Frances with her inner-platypus;
Marc's wife Odile's home-sculpted presents to the girls;
Marc's daughter taught them the french names!
Someday, ask Frances to say platypus in french!)




"Invent games and then music becomes a part of you –
not just a part of the sheet of music."





"The musician’s brain has something different than others—
a bigger connection between the right and left brain.
But the life is not to GROW this connection.
The life is to be happy, yes?"

"You make people happy with your music."
(Marc walked us part way home from dinner, blowing moonlit bubbles)



"Be as free as you can be. Free in your big movements."




"Know Bach, Glenn Gould and John Coltrane.
And Pythagoras."



"Control your dogs."
(Your fingers want to move FAST on the piano,
but your brain is in charge!)


Next Monday, instead of walking to Marc's studio for our lesson,

we'll drive away from Uzes.

 And Marc will be, suddenly, too far away.


I've been preparing the girls for that day. 
The other day, Frances cried and asked,
"What will we do without Marc?"

It was a good question.
Full of sincerity, tension, suspense.


I think we already have our answer. 
We'll find our breath and our home
in the love of music he gave us,
in the love he showed us.
And because of this,
Marc will always be nearer than we think. 


Last two photos taken by Marc's daughter, Alice